"...Come unto me with full purpose of heart, and I shall heal them." 3 Nephi 18:32

All my children have now had the same kind of broken bone called a buckle fracture. It isn't too serious, but it's painful and needs to be protected so there isn't further damage to the bone. I have only seen the x-rays of the broken bone and not the healing one, that is until today. I got to see the x-ray of the healing bone and it was incredibly beautiful. It actually had a hue around the healing bone. I could see the new growth and it was all white, and bright. It looked as though it was actually giving off light.

As I have pondered this incredible phenomenon I have to say it made me think of the healing power that comes from Christ when we turn our hearts and minds to Him and repent~ when we allow Him to heal us. There comes a power from within us to make us change that we can't do on our own. Christ says, "For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of they wounds, saith the Lord..." (Jeremiah 30:17). Not only physical wounds, but emotional, mental, spiritual, every kind of wound we could ever get. He can heal us. "He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds." (Psalms 147:3). Let him in, to be healed from all your wounds, and let His Light shine. And as you are healed, you become filled with light, more and more light, until there is no darkness in you.

Really, being healed is about what we want to see and where we are looking. Do I want to see God and His ways? Do I want to see the good in all that is around me? Yes, there is horror and evil and yucky stuff, but I don't have  to be filled with it. I can be filled with Light. How can I do this? I must see differently. My "eye must be single to [His] glory" D&C 88:67 and His glory is "to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man" Moses 1:39. So, if your "eye" or your purpose is single to this purpose then, "your whole bodies shall be filled with light, and there shall be no darkness in you; and that body which is filled with light comprehendeth all things" D&C 88:67. To have no darkness in you~ that is an incredible and beautiful promise.

Just as my son's broken bone was healing and was giving off "light" we too give off light as we turn to Christ because we are changing and getting rid of darkness and producing more Light. It is an incredible power~ it is there for all of us, free of charge! His healing power is real and so is His Light. This I testify with all my love and from my heart.

I am the true light that lighteth every man that cometh into the world; (D&C 93:2)

Sometimes I get so grouchy and grumpy. My poor family gets the brunt of it, of course. I put on a happy face for the public and then hide in the safety of my home, a place of refuge and honestly, my true identity. I hope that I am able to also let my family know I appreciate how much they mean to me...especially when it comes to letting me be me. I am not always the most pleasant person to be around, tired and hungry aren't a great combination with me (they can testify of that), especially on long trips. Also, after a day when past terrors are hashed over and over, unbeknownst by well meaning people who just want to share their own experiences or stories of their own terrors with bad dragons in their own lives. On days like today, I became the ogre that should have just stayed in her cave and never came out. But I came out anyway. (Good thing I didn't have a head ache to go with it.)

It's on days like today that I really fight the darkness. I don't like darkness. It can be so black. So, on days like today I look for Light. It is always there. Some days, I just have to look a little closer, or take a little more time to SEE. Seeing in the dark is difficult when I put blinders on by my own anger or my own self pity. (Man, can pity really get me sometimes....and then the crying starts, I am not such a pretty sight.)

Okay...I need to find Light. Here is my Light list for today. Jeffrey- the love of my life. He is funny, honest, ever so patient with me and my mood swings. I am so grateful that I have him as a source of Light. He is more than I ever dreamed of in a husband, best friend, and lover. He is fabulous (understatement)! My children- I could name them one by one, but I won't, simply for privacy sake. Each of them help lift me and teach me. I learn as I go as a parent and I am ever so grateful they are so forgiving. They Light up my day with good news, stories of things that have happened, and mostly themselves. They are true blessings in my life! Scriptures- I have to list them because without them...I honestly don't know where I would be. I constantly find Light in them every time I read. They are life blood for me. They bring me peace, insight, a calmness that can't be described, and a communication with God that is honest and open. I love the scriptures! My family and friends-I am truly blessed to be surrounded by Light from these precious souls. I am so grateful that I have them in my life. They have saved mine many a time, definitely unbeknownst to them. I am grateful for the Light of those who choose to not only listen to the Spirit, but also to act upon the prompting given to them to call, or email me or some small act of service, such as sharing a thought they have read in a book or just saying, “Hi, how are you doing” and sincerely meaning it. Honestly, "by small and simple things are great things brought to pass." Alma 37:6.

I may be grouchy and a bit (okay, really) annoyed tonight, but I am so grateful for all the Light in my life! What an incredible life I have. I guess it is normal to have a bad day every once in a while...or perhaps more than that. But it doesn't mean I have to focus on the dark. Nope. I will focus on the Light. Christ said, "The light shineth in darkness, and the darkness comprehendeth it not; nevertheless, the day shall come when you shall comprehend even God, being quickened in him and by him. Then shall ye know that ye have seen me, that I am, and that I am the true light that is in you, and that you are in me; otherwise ye could not abound" D&C 88:49-50. Christ is the Light that is all of us. I will keep looking for that light that shines in the darkness. It lights up my day...even on the darkest of days (those are hard days and I would prefer to not have them, but I don't always get my way.) Aside from the dark days...life really is good, and that would be most of the time. This I testify.